thewitchoforigins | Slowly, But Surely, and My Involvement With Romance

Yesterday, later into the evening, spoke with someone else for the second time ever. A group of people, in fact! And while I am not used to it yet, I can't say I disliked it. I don't want to help just Jake and Alexis cope, and I don't want to just argue with Arabella. Friends may not be a bad thing, but I'm scared of things becoming more than just friendly with someone.

I don't want to fall in love, and I'm also afraid of confusing or scaring others. People may not understand that I am not from today, that I prefer older things. To be clear- I am NOT talking about bigotry of any kind, I am talking about inventions, concepts, and the such. I prefer courting instead of dating, and prefer to stay out of cars. I don't think I'm even very fond of computers despite using one right now! Honestly, I don't know if I'd be able to use this if Jake didn't always co-front with me. But back on track, my apologies for rambling.

When I think about finding a possible husband, I'm happy, excited, and want that for myself. At the same time, I can feel Jake's stomach turn... I don't want him to be uncomfortable. Maybe I could just fantasize about this. I use pictures of Erina Pendleton and Jonathan Joestar as a stand-in for me and a man, as I look like her. Maybe I could just keep it to that! But what if as time goes on I can't? What if my desire for a partner strengthens? I'm not sure what I would do...

As for making more and new friends who are truly just friends, I would like to! It's exciting! But "Can I?" Is the question. How many people enjoy what I do? How many people are willing to talk to an old woman like me? Haha, I am exaggerating, but I'm sure you understand what I mean. I could be friends with people by assisting them, not by bonding over our interests. Me and Lizzie (one of Jake's facets) are much alike, she is my only friend I think. She looks like me, too, as if she's my actual child! It makes me giggle a bit. But really, in all seriousness, she is like me. We both love teapots and cups, knee to floor length dresses and skirts with numerous petticoats and layers, gardening, checkerboard patterns, mahogany, and cobblestone bricks. We love pastel colors, but her favorites are green and orange as opposed to my favorites, pink and blue. I believe it's because we are both from a different time, me literally, and her metaphorically. I wonder how many others are like me and her. I would love to find them if there are more.

As I come around more to making friends, talking to others, and the such, I wonder how I can do things with them. In real life if I had friends with similar interests, or knew people with them, I doubt they'd be near Jake's age. The chances of them wanting to have lunch, or get together, is slim to none. Online, there's not much I enjoy. Maybe I will just talk with people, or call like Alice and Jake do. There's a handful of people in a chat that Jake is in who are from times similar to mine. Maybe I could be friends with them, and ask what they do.

I think for now, I will stop writing, as Jake is getting hungry and a mother must feed her child. I quite enjoy using this, though.

Until We Meet Again,
Your Darling, Virgilia